"this girl is the most wonderful friends who is a girl that I have ever had. She has always been very honest with me and always held me to a higher standard than anyone else. She is absolutely gorgeous and has a wonderful personality and an unbelievable character to her. She is extremely smart and perfect in every way. But she is currently taken by another guy so I have decided that although I do not want to, I'll wait"

What is it about me that makes men think this way?
I am NOTHING special.
In fact, I'm kind of a pain in the butt.

And why has this all happened when my relationship is finally going good???
Men need to leave me be.

I believe in second chances.
I believe in not judging people based on their past and present actions.
However, I believe that you should consider people's actions and not just take their words.
And because of that, I've lost someone I consider a dear friend.
For the first time in my life, I feel that I deserve better than to allow someone in my life who will repeatedly lie to my face.
I'm done taking hits because I believe that people are better than what they prove over and over.
I put so much faith into T.J. and he proved that he could be this awesome guy, but he didn't want to be that. I think he can blame distance and joining the marines for the reason that he broke up with me, but in reality it's probably because I held him to a higher standard. He didn't want to be responsible. He proved that when he went back to being the old T.J. that I refused to date for months. Parties, bars and strippers are a regular part of his life again. I wish him well and I mean that with the bottom of my heart. I hope one day he realizes that he has the potential to become so much, but he needs to learn the concept of personal responsibility.
And this is the problem with Aaron. He's very similar to T.J. and let's face it, I'm a sucker for a bad boy. However, he has lied to me too many times. I will always love him dearly, but I will not get sucked into his drama again. It's bad enough that his ex hates my guts for no reasons and would glare at me when she saw me in a gym.
It's time that I stop allowing these kind of men to walk all over me and be grateful that I have one who would never even dream of taking advantage of me.
Daryn told me that for the first time in his life he cares about a girl more than he cares about himself. He was dead serious when he said it. Plus I know his dating history and can vouch that he tended to lookout for himself first. It means a lot to me that he puts me higher than himself.